Forgot about my journal.

Well today my SeaMan came home. My 19 year old brother returned from the Navy
I came home to a red Tiburon sitting in my driveway. I literally ran into the house screaming "Where's Sperm?!?! Where's Sperm?!" My nickname for him since he's a seaman.
He was asleep so I jumped on his bed and bounced him all over, like old times. I'm so happy he's back. Me, him, and his fiance tried to get his four wheeler going. It's a DS650...his pride...

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I woke up today in London as the plane was touching down
All I could think about was Monday when maybe I'd be back around
If this keeps me away much longer I don't know what I would do
You've got to understand it's a harder life that I'm going through

And when the night falls in around me and I don't think I'll make it through
I'll use your light to guide the way
'Cause all I think about is you

L.A.'s getting kind of crazy
and...

For some reason I've been super tired lately.
After my show yesterday I came back to dads to drop off Lucky and everything. I was SUPPOSED to go home and go swimming with Doug and his neices but I fell asleep here on the couch. Argh.

The weather has been hot lately, but not humid. Today though? Whoowee. Don't go outside. I broke a sweat walking from where the grain is to the pastures and back. Horrible out. Later this evening I'm headed back out to ride Babe and work Lucky on...

When Mac called me, and told me what happened...

I just keep remembering the night of February 15th.
And how no one told me what condition Jerry was actually in....

I walked into the ER room thinking he was alright, he was going to be okay.
Intead...

I walked in to silence.

There is absolutely NO feeling in the world even close to hurting as much as that does.
To feel your heart just rip into pieces.

I know how...