I was reading a thread that just got closed and was a bit taken aback by both sides of the fight.

I for one think death is wasteful and horrible and wish it on almost no one. However I do joke about it.

I joke about everything, but its how I get through the day. Is that wrong? My dad died when I was 14, my grandma just died a couple years ago and I was there through the 3 weeks of her dying slowly in the hospital. I am no stranger to death and how horrible it is....

I head home a week from this Thursday, YAY!

While I was home for Thanksgiving break I only got to ride once. Because of course it decided to rain for 4 of the 5 days I was there... but I did ride in the freezing cold. I only had like an hour of daylight left so I chose to ride Stormy. I can always tack him up hop on and go without worrying about him misbehaving at all (other than being hyped up and generally trying to run and being a butt but not dangerous behavoir). Dreamer I would...

My life is a mess. I just want to self destruct. I am already pulling the walls down. Hiding myself.

Self destruction in 5, 4, 3....

new poem I wrote...

Beaten and Broken

I'm crashing into nothing
Burning as I fall
Beaten and I'm broken
Stay silent through it all

Down upon my knees
Pleading with the skies
Fate is what will kill me
I can see it in your eyes

Maintaining the composure
Gaze upon the ground
Parting with the sorrow
I'm nowhere to be found

Hidden in the shambles
Of a soul that can not lie...

Drama drama drama everywhere I go.

At school, on HGS, online... ACK!

Its college for gods sake... yet it seems more like high school. I suppose possibly because it is a small community college so everyone gets to know everyone else. But geeze.. I am sick of it.

And then I come on here and voila.. more drama.

People acting like know it all's, other telling the know it all's to quit being know it all's but coming off as know it all's themselves,...