Sorry this is so long =( All of the past events have culminated into this final, horrible morning. Just a bit of background. She hates my boyfriend, and loathes the fact that I might want to go to school at NMSU in order to stay with him. This isn't a casual relationship. I want to be with him forever, and she resents it whole-heartedly.

So...I don't think I can have a relationship with my mom. I wanted to. We never had it perfect, but we used to get along so much better. We weren't...

Feeling pretty p1ss poor right now. Never have been so stressed in my life. I've just got so much responsibility...so many decisions to make. But I can't disconnect from others' feelings enough to make the best choice for me. I just can't deal with it anymore I wish it could just end. Kyle supports me. Kyle always supports me. I love him.

I guess I'm just having an emotional breakdown. It will go away sometime. I think I just need to go with what's best. Kyle's getting an apartment....

Ugh. I can't wait until I move out.

I'm 18. My mom "segregates" what days I have to spend with her. She's so crazy. I'm not supposed to go out and do anything on those days because they are HER days. She is almost never home when I obediently drive home straight after class. My curfew is 8 pm. She's acting like I'm 14 years old. It's SO stupid and I just can't reason what is going through her head!

So, she's effectively cutting off my chances to do new things,...

I never did talk about it, did I? It was last Friday. I turned 18. It was...not what I would call fantastic

First my dad was out of town (totally fine by me, I don't mind. He had a business thing) and then I had to take the SAT. Plus...family stuff. Oh boy.

When I invited Kyle to eat out with us my mom got REALLY mad at me. She had TOLD me that Kyle could come! She told me not to uninvite him, but she was tight-lipped and sour the whole night and wouldn't participate...

I have a silly predicament. I am turning 18 in 5 days...and I have a slew of problems!

1. Timing
My B-day is on Friday, the 9th. WOOHOO! A Friday B-day! Only comes around once every 7 years, right? Well meep. First my dad's out of town, and second I have to...yes...take the SAT the NEXT DAY!! *Bangs head against wall* BLAST!! I can't do anything cool because I have to study and get up early the next day. Kyle's upset cause he planned something apparently...but...