Adventures of PaintedRocket

Wooo!! So a few days ago, I asked the BO about riding his horses. He said, "Sure! That would actually be awesome. I hardly get the time to ride them and you're more than welcome to."

So I went out and rode Cochise for about an hour and a half, maybe two hours today. He is a bit stubborn but I believe he has more training on him than Vern actually knew.

Though he kept pis.sing me off as if he will start backing up if he doesn't want to do something or go forward....

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This is just from my thread in adult.. but whatev..

I have a date on Saturday...

Okay but don't flame me.. *hides*

It's with my ex, Casey. We've been hanging out and talking--nothing serious or even expecting anything serious. No promises, nothing. It's nice because for ONCE, he is being very considerate to me and MY wants (about time for myself and my girlfriends) and neither of us want to jump into anything. Especially since I'm not in any shape or place...

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So I yesterday was my vet appt. I actually called to cancel because I thought I was going to have to stay at work late, but I just ended up leaving work early anyway.. so flew out there and met the vet.

The vet just MADE MY DAY!! She is very nice, answered a lot of my questions. She didn't give her any shots, just a check up and I ended up having to pay almost $100!! Most of that was just for travel! But it was worth it. Gert is just fine and dandy.. Vet said for being an accident,...

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Why must I worry.. ? Why can't I just let things be? I worry about Casey not loving me--even though I can feel it. I don't know why I worry.. I shouldn't worry. I dont WANT to worry.. I just want to be free from that kind of stress and hurt. I know I will be devistated if things dont work out as I hope.

I mean, I know.. I just do know he is the one for me.. Da.mnit, I can't stop crying. I worry that he will keep me in the friend zone forever and won't want to give us another go. I...

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Okay this is an admition to myself.

After tonight--I know that I am still in love with Casey. It was just THERE and there is absolutely no way in he.ll that I could deny it, even to myself. I'm 100% sure he felt it too.. and we just talked!

I am not confused as I thought I had been with Chris. This was plain and simple that I just know. So now I know what was throwing me off with Chris.. that it just wasn't right because of where my heart is. Though Casey does NOT have...

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