As some people could tell, I haven't been on HGS as much lately. For quite a few reasons that only one or two know about.

1. People/members were just driving me absolutely insane and I was starting to get very irritated and quite easily (which is not normal) with the snarkyness that has been going around. I have had enough drama in my own life, I don't need the other CRUD (I'm not cursing) that some people like to bring out.

2. I just needed a break and distance myself from HGS for a while. Only coming on to check messages and post here and there. I was also getting sick and tired of the repetitive threads. I know it's a common occurance on here, especially when we get an increase of new members who just don't know any better. My patience was starting to wear very thin so I thought it best to take a few steps back so I wouldn't take it out on anyone here. I can be a BIG time bee itch and no one wants to see that side of me. They have no idea..

I've had a lot going on here. The whole job search finally ended and I've been working for a jeweler the past two weeks. I really like my job even if it consists of a LOT of driving, it's okay. I have more time to myself and time to think and just enjoy being alone. I'm pretty much "free" to do whatever.. I can take my breaks whenever, eat whenever, dress however but I'm always keeping busy after I'm doing with my runs and errands. In the two weeks I've been there, I've heard so many great compliments and I've gotten my confidence back as a person, lol. The guys (the 2nd owner and I are the only females there and there are 5 guys) told me they have never seen the shop so clean and organized before, my bosses always say how effecient I am (same with the store managers of our clients)..tho I've goofed up a couple of times, I just get teased for it in fun. This is a whole new world and its facinating to me and I'm really enjoying learning about all this new environment.

After a few loooong talks with Heather, she has helped me SO much in my relationship with Casey and everything has taken a fantastic turn for the better since she has made me realize a bit more about myself, emotions, feelings and all that. She's the greatest BFF monkey EVER! Her and Shannon had been telling me quite often to do something..so I finally did and it has made a remarkable change in Casey and I's relationship. We went to a party the other night.. and I swear I haven't flirted with my own boyfriend so much in such a long time, lol!! It felt great.. We would be doing our own thing, talking to our friends or someone, then come over and flirt with eachother and then go on our way.. come back to do the same later. Makes my heart soar and he still gives me the tingly butterflies (no not THOSE ones..well.. sometimes those too )

What also helped me as a person.. last weekend when my BO's were out of town, I took Cochise (the Paint gelding) for a looong trail ride. Just him and I.. I went barefoot (holding onto my flipflops and carrying my cell phone in case something happened) and bareback.. I really felt like a free child of God. I feel like I have become closer to God than I ever have before. Cochise adn I rode for nearly 3 hours in the beautiful wilderness.. just singing, talking and talking with God. We galloped through feilds and along side a road where it was perfect for galloping.. I felt so FREE and so liberated and worry-free as well. Since then, I've felt more confident about myself (I really lost myself for about 3-4 weeks) and have learned to enjoy doing things on my own more. Cochise is a great horse and we bonded really well too.. we took care of eachother on the trail.

Gert doesn't mind me neglecting her. That means she doesn't have to work, behave or anything. She's been kept with Cochise while Molly was taken to get bred once more (she was confirmed in foal but then lost it) and Gert has learned some more horsey manners..hahaha. He would chase her away from the food and be a bully to him. Serves the Little Princess right!! She follows me around the paddock all over the place. She will stand still, untied, while I pick out her hooves, brush her and just play with her. She's really been more loving towards me too..which she really isn't most of the time. She'll throw her head to my chest or on my shoulder and just breath. I love my little girl!!

I registered for fall classes this semester. I'm such a nerd! I realized that I have NEVER taken English 101 in college yet, lmao! So I registered for that (should be way easy anyway), a math class and Paralegal studies. It doesn't enterfere with work and I will still have time for the horses. I'll just be super busy but Casey and I have told eachother even though we're both going to be really busy, we'll make time for eachother at LEAST twice a week to do something as a couple, even if it's just renting a movie or something.

So that's about it really.. LOL. I know a few people (Amber esp) was wondering about me and what I've been up to. Thought I'd just post about it..

OOOOH and I LOVE my hair right now! I know, completely random ROTFL but see every time I get my hair cut, I usually don't like it. I keep getting this one lady at Style America (I need to just find a really good salon) that cuts CHUNKS and makes my hair look like cr.ap! Well my bangs have finally grown out and they frame my face. I love that look.. and the way my hair sits when it's unstyled even looks great right now. It's even better when I style/curl it and stuff.. Looks HOT!

See..here..HAVE to show off my new pics, sorrrryyy!

This one was taken in the bathroom at my friend's house.. I was, umm.. intoxicated but I sent it to Shannon







It definately needs a trim now though..

Holy CRUDIOLI I wrote a lot!