Im depressed and miserable. I jst want out of this stupud life! Everything is just so skrewed up!
My bf is a total loser, he is a user and a ungreatful &#^@^ Sometimes i just HATE him so much!
Why is he always so mean to me? Why does he always do horrible stuff to me? I always ger the blame for everything and it sucks! Hes bringing me down so much, i used to be a big bubble of fun, and now im jst a miserable, unhappy teenager with no life.

Macca read an email i sent to my ex last month, i know i shouldnt hav sent it, and i felt guilty and horrible afterwards... He sent me a txt today, one i cant write on here, he abused the **** out of me, calling me names and just been plain cruel. I left work and came home, only to find him hiding behind the shed...i walked into our room about 15min later to find broken glass, and blood all over my mirror. He had smashed all my photo frames with photos of us in them...i just burst into tears...it was horrible. Im so scared of him, he comes near me and i cant help but flinch...what if he turns on me? what if he hits me? Mum, dad and my nanna and grandad want me to move home again, they wanted me to go home toight but i cant leave charlie here...one of the photo he had scratched Charlies head out...im scared he mite do somthing to hurt Charlie...and that scares me nore then anything.

Any advice anyone, i know i shoud leave him, but i love him, so much, and its so hard to just walk away, iv put my whole life into him... THIS SUCKS