Well today it's gorgeous outside. Nice day for a ride. But I can't. Why? B/c she is gone. The horse I should be riding is dead and today it's killing me. I want to ride. I want to be riding my horse. It's not fair. I tried to take good care of her. We had a bond. She taught me to ride better and I want her back so we can continue to ride together. I don't think I will ever get another horse. I'm considering selling my saddle. I won't ever use it again and it's too small for the kids and hubby.