merlin

i hate posting like this.. it sucks. im not doing good.. i havent been in years.. i dont know what to do..I miss Merlin so much.. i want him back he made me atleast sane.. i dont know. i guess i leaned on him alot to keep me alive and now that he's not i dont feel there really is a reason to stay here. mehh forget it.

merlin

It's not a lie if you believe it,
It's not a mistake if you repeat it

She sits in a corner
singing herself to sleep
wrapped around promises
that no one seems to keep

She says she’s fine
but she’s going insane
she says she feels good
but she’s in a lot of pain
she says its nothing
but its really a lot
she says she’s okay
but really she’s not

This is for you mom who tortured me
and led...

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well I moved back to my Favorite boarding stable I missed it so much. and now I am not so sure. I feel totally left out there now.
i used to go trail riding with a girl there and she never used to be into jumping and all that stuff and now thats all she really wants to do. they have a new barn built where all the boarders get to stay in.
i am in the old barn. its good i like it but i feel so alone in there, i have no one to hang out with anymore as everyone has someone now. everyone...

merlin