Just up dating a little

Today was a blah, ick, yuck, day. I went on a date last night with my sister and we went to Red Lobster and got Chocolate Cake!! YUMMERSS! She also bought me a really cute shirt that I feel so girly in it but I still like it. So we were out late which means I slept in late today. 10:30 that is. After I got up I lounged around and then every body left the house to go off to various arrons and i stayed home and search youtube and listened to music. After that I showered and ate. Then mom came home and she helped me with some science school work that is do on Monday....and it's not done because I just went looking for it and our stupid computer deleted it so I have to go RE-DO the WHOLE THING. Stupid computers. Later I unloaded the dish washer and yeah. I have been on HGS off and on all day. Finally, after I talked myself into thinking i needed fresh air, I went outside and groomed my trainers horse we care for and groom/lunged my own horse. I thought about riding but I have been in a weird mood all day and I didn't feel like putting the energy into riding Willy today. It's funny, when ever my riding is going well my training sessions with Willy go bad and whenever my training sessions with Willy go well my riding goes bad! Oh well, I 'spose
it's part of life.

Then there's the boys in my life. I yi yi. Well, that guy I like(d) makes it pretty clear (not on purpose or rudely) that he realllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllyy likes this one girl, Lizzy. It's funny because whenever I used to have a crush/actually like someone, and later I found out they didn't like me back then I wouldn't like them any more. But not this time, even though I know he doesn't like me I still like him, a lot. Then there is his friend...... god he's cute! So...... feeling a bit guilty....I like two guys at the same time. But I think his friend is just a crush and he is an actual winner! I don't know anymore. I just wish I didn't worry my little head about boys so much. I know God will provide the right guy when the times is right, if it is ever. It's so hard NOT to worry about those things. I mean, it is human nature. It's the way we were made. Do to my weirdness and cracking up and the stupidest stuff and making jokes only I get, I some times wonder if I weird every guy out so know guy likes me. Seriously, I am not trying to like, brag about being so 'special' because we all are. But I really weird people out because of the way I think of stuff, the jokes i make, my opinions, the things I laugh at, how often and long I laugh, everything. My friends and family just look at me and laugh with me because they know this is me but some people that don't know me REALLY get weirded out and I wonder if i weird guys out so they never like me. Oh, there i go worrying again.

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