I'm tired of it all ready! Secound semester halfway through of my first year of high school! Yeah and Already I wanna leave! I can now see why some people gave up on school and dropped out!
I'm the only one in the middle of my 2 best friends! Everyone else has there side and that's it! then there me stuck in the middle friends with all the people!
But the fact is one side is saying S**t about the other side when I'M around! hello you used to be friend with those people and if your gonna say those things make sure I'm NOT there! That same side I've gotten some pretty dirty looks from with talking to the other side, and not only me, boyfriend (now ex(not mine), and the other people!
I'm tired of it, ready to hang my coat up and say I'm done with it. I get easily frustrated with people! And this has seriously affected me in some bad ways!!!

I want/need help with this! But I know my parents wont understand it all and might just make things worse, or more frustrated. I have one friend I think I'm gonna talk to. I've come to trust him enough that I think I can! Even just to get it out would be nice at this point. I've told one other friend who was trying to help me but I just didn't know how to let it all out! I wanted to scream and yell to make it all better! But of cource that's not gonna make it better in any way! well okay it might haha but everyone on my bus would think I am mental!

ugh I'm feeling slightly better already! YAY! lol I didn't get to ride this weekend so that is NOT helping at all! If I don't get out of the house and away from all that then I get pretty cranky and mad! At the barn I get to go away from the drama, my parents. It's like my problem diapear I can talk to indy and I know he's always there to comfort me! I <3 my baby!

I think I'm cooled down enough to do my homework, not rip it up in anger and then go to bed! It's a cruel world out there and I'm gonna fight it one tear, one situation, one person at a time!

Oh and today Jimmy's friend said he was gonna race me and indy! Stupid boy's don't know what there getting themselves into these days!