[crazi4horses]

Today dad and I were going to get our christmas tree, which took way longer than it should have(we ended up 65 miles from home and went to 5 different tree farms before we found 'theone' and it's kind of goofy lookin..lol) but we talked kind of alot because it was just us. Now, my dad and I don't always get along the best, actually its quite rare we can be together with out arguing which sucks cuz I have always been a daddy's girl, but anyways, we passed alot of horses, and we passed this GORGEOUS hanoverian..he was dark bay with 4 small socks, and a perfect star/strip/snip, flawless(or as close as I've everseen) conformation..I was speechless, you have no idea! Dad must have noticed me drooling because he goes 'like that horse hun?' I was like 'YES! the next horse I get I want to be a hanoverian' so we got on the subject of my next horse, what I want to look for and stuff. THEN we passed a big sign that says 'horse for sale'..and my dad says, there'll be a sign that like sometime soon here about Honey..I automatically said 'Excuse me?!? I don't think so!' which probably wasn't the best thing to say because he doesn't like when im 'fresh' and I admit that was, but he understood. I asked why, and he said that its obvious to him and mom, that Honey isn't what I want in a horse...I thought for a min..and I hate to admit it, but He's right she's not what I thought I'd ever own, and when I tell people what type of horse I want to own, I don't describe her. I describe a 16.1+ warmblood or warmblood cross that knows basic dressage. It makes me sound so ungrateful for her, and it makes me seem like I don't like her, but I love my horse more than anything, and even though she may not be what I 'wanted' she's perfect.. I have always said I won't get an arab(no offense to anyone who likes them, I've never had the desire to own one) and I won't get a QH.."They are too common, and not built for dressage" is what I would always tell myself...yet Honey is perfect. I'm so confused.. I don't know what to do. I feel like I don't deserve her because I know my dad is right...But how can she not be what I want..yet she is perfect in my eyes. I've had people offer $6500 for her,JUST because they thought she was a warmblood cross. I have second thoughts, yet I can't bear the Idea of not having her. All I do at the moment is dressage, and she doesn't at all..shes a jumper..yet I'm willing to train her dressage because I know she can do it, and I'm willing to take up jumping competitivly for her, because tahts what she loves.

I'm sorry guys, This was basically just a venting post, but if anyone can give me any advice/support it would be great. I feel like I don't deserve her, because shes not the dresasge horse I wanted and I feel like I'm holding her back in her jumping abilities, but I can't stand the thought of not having her, or of having her be someone elses baby..And I made a promise to her..I would never sell her for selfish reasons..and the only way I would sell her is if it was absolutly needed..it breaks my heart to even talk about selling her, because right after I said that, she nickered and gave me a kiss(yes, she gives kisses)..I don't even know why I'm so upset about it..dad never said I HAD to sell her..I don't know anything anymore..

Thanks for reading this, im sorry its long.

-Paige-



*I love you HoneyBun*

[crazi4horses]

Oh, and I'm kind of worried about who is taking care of her, my trainer is in California, and when I first got to the farm, Honey had a really terrified look in her eye, and was snorting and looked really ticked..she didn't calm down until I went in her stall and said 'Its okay Honeybun, its mumma"...they she came up and rubbed her muzzle on me, and went back to eating..but it makes me a little worried.

[HorseCraze120]

Hey Hun! Its Alright..I can understand what your going through..Like i love her to death, but shes not the type i want to own..I went trhough that with sarge. I know you love your little girly more than anything. Do you want to sell her/are you willing to sell her? Those are questions that you to ask yourself and think about. I would just say follow your heart and im here for you NO matter what decision you possibly make..and you know honey loves you too. I hope you feel better and if you want to call, PM me or IM me thats fine just let me know.. hang in there

[crazi4horses]

Thanks hun..Thats the thing, I DON'T want to sell her, but I feel like she deserves better. I am just really confused..Thank you so much though..your awesome.

[SalemWitchChild]

Seems like you have some questions to ask yourself. If she can be trained to do what you want, then why not do it? You may have some ideals that have stuck with you. But I've come to find that what our ideals are and what we get are totally different at times. We just have to work with what we've got. However, if you do not feel that she will satisfy you, then by all means look for another.

[Moonshine Zeus]

I had the same experince last night. With zeus and all. I could not bear to lose him he is my life and i love him more then anything but i am getting to big for him well not really but yeah. First my mum sat me down and told me about this home the people offered. It was like a dream a 100k truck stables perfect paddocks etc etc. Best care but i dont think i could. But i feel so mean to zeus if i dont ride him he loves me as much as i love him he follews me around the paddock and i would hate the thought of someone else loving him. I was crying and my mum kept saying its ok its ok i never said you had to sell him. You obviously love her dearly and she loves you dont feel bad about holding her back if she wasnt happy she would show it!

[crazi4horses]

Thanks guys..I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't come on here..you help me through so much. I think I need to just sit down and think about it. I can teach her to do what I want to some extent, but people (*ahem* my trainer) doesn't always believe in me. And she's not close to home, she is like 40 min one way and I can't legally drive. I have in my mind what would be the perfect situation for me and honey, but neither of them are going to happen..and I'm happy with her, so I shouldnt even be thinking of a new horse, but I do..I think thats why I have such a hard time..It doesnt help when the person who got me into horses and has taught me everything I know(before the forum..Ive learned tons on here) doesnt have faith in what I'm doing with my girl


Thanks again guys..you are all the greatest..

[crazi4horses]

I've read this post over and over..and I can't stop thinking about this..and why I would even think about selling her. She has been nothing but good for me and I've been happier than ever since the day I first saw her..I'm not quite sure why I am having second thoughts..Thanks for everything guys..

[Moonshine Zeus]

Try and imagine life without.... do you still want her gone. I came to the decision to day after about a million offers to have zeus that there is no way i am even going to lease him. He was prancing around like a stallion with me on him so there is no way he needs a smaller rider i just gotta lose some weight and i am trying i am running and stuff. Any way its good for him to keep in work. You have said she is the best horse and she probably is perfect for you dont go rushing into any decision though.

[Moonshine Zeus]

I also found out over these pasy few days decision making is hard id rather have it decided for me.