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that was on the 7/8 Nov 2009, just to let u know

Awww Neigh, I know the feeling of wanting a family, that's all I want. If that's not what Casey wants... or is willing to give you, there isn't much one can do. Just trust in God, he's always there for you and always loves you, and has a plan for you, despite the pain, something I've definitely learned as of late, you'll be ok ((((HUGS))))

hahhahahahaha oh katie, I know how you feel!!!! I never even used to want to order pizza LOL!!!

Good luck on the job hunt!!!!!! I worked as a groom at a jumper barn one summer and it was so much fun!!

((BIG FAR AWAY HUGS)) Neigh, you know where I am at all times... just a text or a call or a message or an email away!!!

Everything happens when it is supposed to. Marriage is something you can't rush or force. Once you've started your family you'll have them forever. Maybe just focus on enjoying your freedom while you have it for now.

And the whole Casey thing......... no one should feel that way Maybe he's not the right person for you if your long term goals are different. Equality in a relationship is one of the most important things to have.

((more HUGS))... xoxo

Oh Renee, I am so sorry you are going through such a rough time! I have been through depression too, I know how it is and it's horrible. Please PM or FB me if you ever need to talk!! ((BIG GIANT HUGS))

Horses are amazingly therapeutic.

I'm sorry. I don't know what to say other than things will get better for you, and you do deserve everything you want out of life.

You'll be in my thoughts.

Awe Megs, I'm sorry. I know how hard it is to be with people you care about and see how much they're hurting and being able to do absolutely nothing to help them. It hurts, it hurts like a *****. I firmly believe that you will never get more than you can handle in life. If something difficult or bad is happening to you it's because you can deal with it and there is some sort of wisdom to be gained somewhere. Maybe I'm naive for thinking this way, but it sure beats the **** out of doubting myself. You are a good person, you care a lot about the people in your life or you wouldn't be feeling how you do. It's going to be painful, it's going to go on for what seems like forever, but you will overcome it. Keep in mind that the feeling you have of wanting to help your mom and not being able to, that's likely exactly how she's feeling about you right now, like you're just out of reach and now she's looking for people to blame for that. I'm so sorry you're going through all this, Megs. Big hugs from Oregon and the farm!

Thanks Penelle, I really appreciate your support. I am going to Equine Affaire this weekend armed with my video camera and I am going to try to learn every thing I can. I have stocked up on training books too, and watch videos daily.

Remembering the good days when he is being a brat is definitely good advice. It will be hard to stay mad or frustrated with him if I think about how he licked my chin to say hello when I got to the barn today. Haha!

It is very hard to be patient, I am already finding myself needing to take deep breaths often. I keep reminding myself that success doesn't happen over night, but it sure would be nice lol!!

Thank you! He sure does know how to make me smile. I usually give him kisses on the nose as soon as I get to the barn.. so today when I got to the barn he stuck his face as far into the aisle as he could get it. When I got to his stall, he actually licked my chin - so now he was the one giving out kisses! It was cute beyond words!!! It was another story when he realized he had to work today, but still... lol

lol i had a very very very good day! but today was even better! ill tell all later if i am reminded to!

Loved reading this post. I am very happy you left with a smile on your face. I hope he continues to improve for you!

Keep us updated!

I think you are doing everything right with this horse especially since he turned out to be something way different than you were expecting.

My first two horses were like this -I was young and my mom bought them - she should have taken my Dad as she really was NOT a horse person LOL

My Dad was of the firm opinion that with patience, time and training you can make a huge difference.

My second horse was a mare who was probably worse than my first horse (which was a Shetland pony and he was a brat) taught me some really invaluable lessons and turned out to be a really great mare in the end.

Its frustrating because your new to it all. But you know what?
Even those of us who have been at it for years have a lot of the same frustrations.
I left horses for awhile and came back to them and it was exceptionally frustrating to not be able to just fall back into it and have everything come easily. And there is so much new stuff to learn LOL

But try being patient. Its hard at times. Savor those really good days and remember those in your blackest moments and there will be some.
In time there will be more and more good days.

Its great that you are willing to work with Dee and you are really doing super in my opinion.

Penelle

Thanks!! You're right, it is really frustrating.. but I know it will be worth it in the end.

Hang in there-sounds like you are on the right track! I know it's really frustrating to be at square one when you thought otherwise. Keep after it & stay safe!

I never thought of that. I suppose it wouldn't hurt to try giving him every other day off.

I am very thankful that I decided to spend the extra money every month to board at my trainer's barn. She has helped me deal with a lot of his issues, and so have other experienced horsepeople that board there.

Thanks for the support, hopefully it will work out.

Man, I'm sorry you've gotten such a raw deal on your first horse! It sounds like you've been working him every day and I'm just wondering... since you posted about his nice day after he was alone all day... if maybe he'd actually do better if you worked him every other day instead. I don't konw many but I have met a few horses that were completely awful when handled daily, they just got worse and worse. As soon as they started getting less attention, bingo, they were fine. It was like they wanted their "me" time, lol. Again, I am so sorry about the situation you got stuck in, at least you have a trainer to help you. I really hope it all works out for you, best of luck!

$10 maybe? I know at one barn I was, a training ride was $25, so that's upon which I'm basing my reply.

Sounds like you had a good day, LOL!

I agree with RampantLion. Have a positive attitude!

Cogradulations!
I'm happy for you!